{"id":785,"date":"2011-01-14T15:48:02","date_gmt":"2011-01-14T12:48:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.gokhanyorgancigil.com\/?p=785"},"modified":"2017-05-11T22:28:10","modified_gmt":"2017-05-11T19:28:10","slug":"farkedilmek","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.gokhanyorgancigil.com\/?p=785","title":{"rendered":"Farkedilmek&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter\" src=\"http:\/\/www.archweb.it\/arte\/artisti_C\/Cezanne\/images\/Cezanne%20-%20Bend%20in%20Forest%20Road.JPG\" alt=\"\" width=\"809\" height=\"1041\" \/><br \/>\nH\u0131zla giden bir araban\u0131n cam\u0131ndan d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bak\u0131yorsun. Her \u015fey g\u00f6zlerinin \u00f6n\u00fcnden ak\u0131p ge\u00e7iyor. G\u00f6zbebeklerin g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerini takip etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaktan yorulmu\u015f. Yolun iki yan\u0131nda meyve bah\u00e7eleri var. Tek t\u00fck de evler&#8230; Uzaklara bakt\u0131k\u00e7a soluk renkli tepeleri, da\u011flar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyorsun. Da\u011flar\u0131n \u00fczerinde de benek benek zeytin a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 cama yaslam\u0131\u015f \u00f6ylece bak\u0131yorsun. D\u0131\u015f\u0131ndaki d\u00fcnya, b\u00fct\u00fcn evren ne kadar da kay\u0131ts\u0131z sana kar\u015f\u0131! Yolun kenar\u0131nda y\u00fcr\u00fcyen ya\u015fl\u0131 adam senin oradan ge\u00e7ti\u011fini bilmiyor. Bilse bile umurunda olacak m\u0131 acaba? Zaman zaman hayaller kuruyorsun. \u0130\u015fte \u015fu an, tam da bu an, bu otob\u00fcste, bu salonda, bu okulda, bu i\u015fyerinde, bu \u015fehirde&#8230; En iyi y\u00fcrekli, en ak\u0131ll\u0131, en g\u00fczel g\u00f6zl\u00fc, sesi en g\u00fczel ki\u015fi oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcns\u00fcnler istiyorsun. &#8220;E\u011fer bilselerdi&#8221; diyorsun&#8230; Senin ne denli muhte\u015fem bir varl\u0131k ve tertemiz, lekesiz bir vicdanla dola\u015fan bir insan oldu\u011funu, b\u00f6yle kay\u0131ts\u0131z olurlar m\u0131yd\u0131 sana kar\u015f\u0131?<\/p>\n<p>Ama sonra o ac\u0131 ger\u00e7ek y\u00fcz\u00fcne buz gibi \u00e7arp\u0131veriyor. Sen, bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 i\u00e7in ak\u0131p ge\u00e7en g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcler i\u00e7inde s\u0131radan bir ayr\u0131nt\u0131dan ibaretsin. Uzak da\u011flardaki ne id\u00fc\u011f\u00fc belirsiz beneklerden, -a\u011fa\u00e7 m\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131 m\u0131 yoksa gizli ve gizemli bir hazinenin kap\u0131s\u0131 m\u0131 ne farkeder- fark\u0131n yok. Farkedilmeni hakedecek ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorsun? Bir \u015fey yapman-yapabilmen mi yoksa senin mutlak varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n m\u0131 seni e\u015fsiz k\u0131lan? Ba\u015fkas\u0131 i\u00e7in &#8220;bir ba\u015fkas\u0131&#8221; olmaya tahamm\u00fcl edebilecek misin?<\/p>\n<p>Sen neyi ya da kimi farkediyorsun ki farkedilmeyi umuyorsun \u00e7aresizce?<\/p>\n<p>Yol kenar\u0131nda, \u00e7al\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131 aras\u0131nda kaybolmu\u015f, tozlu, c\u0131l\u0131z dallar\u0131 olan bir a\u011fa\u00e7s\u0131n sen. \u0130nce dallar\u0131n r\u00fczgarla bir o yana bir bu yana sallan\u0131p duruyor b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn. Beni farkedecek bir Allah&#8217;\u0131n kulu yok mudur diye yak\u0131n\u0131p duruyorsun ama kimse seni g\u00f6rm\u00fcyor. Herkes yan\u0131ndan gelip ge\u00e7iyor, herkes kendi yolculu\u011fuyla, kendi varl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla ilgileniyor. Yol kenar\u0131ndaki de\u011fersiz bir a\u011fac\u0131 kim ne yaps\u0131n?<\/p>\n<p>E\u011fer bir g\u00fcn&#8230; Ayaklar\u0131n seni bir g\u00fcn bir bah\u00e7eye g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr de, y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn yola yak\u0131n ilk s\u0131ralardakilerden biri de\u011fil, hi\u00e7 kimsenin, i\u015fsiz g\u00fc\u00e7s\u00fcz bir delinin bile fark\u0131na varma ihtimali olmayan c\u0131l\u0131z bir a\u011faca yakla\u015f\u0131p, o \u00e7\u00f6p gibi dallar\u0131ndan birini tutup&#8230; sanki seni duyacakm\u0131\u015f gibi ona f\u0131s\u0131ldarsan:<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Seni <strong>ben<\/strong> farkettim&#8230; <strong>Ben<\/strong>, senin fark\u0131nday\u0131m, karde\u015fim&#8230;&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>K\u0131talar\u0131 ke\u015ffetmi\u015f bir gezgin ya da buz gibi bir havada sabaha kadar teleskobunun ba\u015f\u0131nda oturmu\u015f, uzaklardaki bir galaksiyi ilk kez g\u00f6ren bir astronom kadar \u015fansl\u0131 olursun. \u0130\u015fte ancak o zaman&#8230; Sen de farkedilmeyi hakedeceksin.<\/p>\n<p><em><span style=\"color: #99ccff;\">Resim: Paul Cezanne &#8211; Route tournante en sous-bois (1902-06)<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>H\u0131zla giden bir araban\u0131n cam\u0131ndan d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bak\u0131yorsun. Her \u015fey g\u00f6zlerinin \u00f6n\u00fcnden ak\u0131p ge\u00e7iyor. G\u00f6zbebeklerin g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerini takip etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaktan yorulmu\u015f. Yolun iki yan\u0131nda meyve bah\u00e7eleri var. Tek t\u00fck de evler&#8230; Uzaklara bakt\u0131k\u00e7a soluk renkli tepeleri, da\u011flar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyorsun. Da\u011flar\u0131n \u00fczerinde de benek benek zeytin a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 cama yaslam\u0131\u015f \u00f6ylece bak\u0131yorsun. D\u0131\u015f\u0131ndaki d\u00fcnya, b\u00fct\u00fcn evren ne kadar da [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[248],"tags":[256,64],"class_list":["post-785","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-cesitli","tag-gokhan-yorgancigil","tag-oyku"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gokhanyorgancigil.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/785","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gokhanyorgancigil.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gokhanyorgancigil.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gokhanyorgancigil.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gokhanyorgancigil.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=785"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"https:\/\/www.gokhanyorgancigil.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/785\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":790,"href":"https:\/\/www.gokhanyorgancigil.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/785\/revisions\/790"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gokhanyorgancigil.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=785"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gokhanyorgancigil.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=785"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gokhanyorgancigil.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=785"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}